Vogue: The timing here is a little eerie! Did you know you were pregnant when this project wrapped?
Ilana Glazer: No, no. We wrapped in the spring of 2019, and the release date kept getting pushed. And I was like, “Guys, I can’t wait to get pregnant, because I am 34—almost a ‘geriatric pregnancy.’” I know the risk goes up after 35, but, like, get the fuck out of here. “Geriatric pregnancy.” It’s just so fucking rude!
So, you chose to have a pandemic pregnancy.
My partner and I always thought we’d have children together, but we took about two years to really make the decision. There’s obviously been great loss over the last year, and then also some gifts, and the gifts have been getting to be with my partner so much and, yeah, just sharing that love and affection. I don’t think it’s better or worse to have a kid or not, though, I really don’t. I think women who never have children, like, that is such a cool way to exercise your female-bodied lived-in experience.
Did Lucy’s struggles with fertility factor into you deciding, you know what, let’s talk about doing this for real?
I mean, the movie didn’t influence my decision to have a child, but it definitely pre-embedded this fear in my body about trouble getting pregnant because I had almost practiced and modeled it in my physiology. I had represented the struggle and had felt it in my bones in order to act it well. I increasingly think of acting as lending my physiology rather than pretending. So it lifted up the joyousness that I was lucky enough to feel around a simple path to pregnancy.
The film explores a lot of really big themes that so many women encounter, but that are too rarely talked about publicly—specifically around inequitable and disenfranchising maternal and fetal care. Have you experienced any of this in your own pregnancy?
I hate that notion that you have to advocate for yourself, but it’s so true. And for female-bodied people on the spectrum of race or gender, you have to advocate for yourself more. Just the idea of advocating for yourself at all, it’s so ridiculous. I’m not the best at advocating for myself. It takes me an extra space to create that critical thinking. But I’ve had a relatively healthy, positive experience thus far.